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Hi, im a 22 years old Male and new to this list. I considerd my self always being very healthy and never had any sings of sleep disorder or other mental illnes in my youth. But lately i have started having serious problems. It started when i was in university, i was doing some Martial Arts (kickboxing) and i think i was pretty stressed out before any of the big competitions and tourments, and my first encounters with Hypnogogia-alike hallucinations started. They would happen 3-4 days after a stressful situation. Most often i was shapes of scorpions or spiders, i woke up and in less then a second realised it was nothing. Sometimes i shok my pillow in missbelife. But i could easily ignore it. This happend only like once or twice per semester, so it was not a problem at all. Now two years later im working in the IT industry as a software developer, i dont consiser my work being very stressful, stil the symptoms of hypnogogia are getting worse. Im basicly wakeing up in panic each night now (since two weeks its been this bad) , this will happen about one hour after i go to sleep. Sometimes i get visions, but i never feel any sings of SP. is that unusual ? Most ppl on the list seem to have the visions together with SP. But most times i just panic, without knowing why. I can not understand what im being affraid of during night, and i can not relate this to anything in my real life. Im having a great time of my life now, living with my gf and doing fun stuff during the days. So why is this getting worse. Sometimes im half way out of my apartment when i "fully" awake, sometimes im only on the way out of the room, running, or finding myself in the bathroom. Always with a heartrace, scared to death and in panic. As a little addon to the information, sleeping during daytime i used to often encounter possitive lucid dreams effect, and i loved to laborate with them. I dont know if its related in any way since the panic i get now are only negative feelings.