Follow-Up:
i attempted suicide christmas night 1969 after years of 72 hour shifts while serving in the US Navy in Vietnam. It was very conscious however and I swallowed about 70 sleeping pills with the intention of not having to wake up...ever. I have been on SSI on and off ever since my discharge, diagnosed with anxiety disorders, guilt complex, combat fatigue and later, when the term was coined, PTSD. It is hard to sort out what has caused which symptoms i have had as i feel worse and worse about the duty i performed with such dedication there (we were directing the bombing of north Vietnam) my sleep is disturbed now increasingly and i have not had the resilience i think i would otherwise have had. i cry easily and sometimes for days at a time, moreso as time goes on and could not hold a job when i got out of the navy, even in my field, (computers) which i had good aptitude for and interest in, due to lack of concentration for any extended period of time. again it is hard to seperate what is natural guilt, or remorse and what is long term effects of years of sleep deprivation. doubt this is much help but hope it is. noel