Follow-Up:
I sit here in tears as I read the last message posted. I do not know if what I have is the beginning of sleep deprivation or whatever...I know that I have sleep paralysis and a mild amount of anxiety...I know I have high levels of stress at times and I know I push myself too far...but as I read noel's ad it hurt me...it hurt me because there was no desperation...there was no life in his ad...it was as if he had given up hope...It's as if this is all he has...This little website on some obscure page...his only hope...Is sleep deprivation the result of mental illness or can it be the cause of mental illness...The feeling that I feel when I wake up in the dark unable to move and feeling things that have never been explained to me until now...I feel like I am going crazy...when I don't want to sleep...or I can't sleep..it depresses me...hurts me...and I cry...I am scared to sleep...I fear that noel's fate although a different form of sleep illness...is also my own...Should I suffer in the same silence awake...that I sleep in...?? If anyone feels the same as me...please write me...but only as a friend...